Summer? Why are you already here, but only for some?

One friend of mine is anxiously waiting his semester grades.  Another has moved into her campus's library for the week, after which she will be moving home.  A third is already in Israel!  But me?  I'll be here for almost another month. A MONTH!

Why do schools differ so much in schedules?  There's quarters, trimesters, winter sessions, some of which I don't even understand!  I like semesters...nice and simple.  And you know then when you're home that you're friends are too instead of being by yourself and bored out of your mind!

I'm one of those bored, lonely girls on my breaks.  My school has a "winter session"/mimi-mester for the month of January where you can take 1 or 2 classes...or have a winter break that lasts until February 8.  That sounded pretty nice to me at first, so freshman year it's what I planned to do.  But by New Years, I came to my senses.  What was I going to do for a whole month?!  I signed up for a class at community college to transfer over, and I still had WAY too much free time.  This year, I stayed at school to take one class (which I can't afford to do again) and worked 20 hours a week.  I liked it.  I was still by myself because even though a lot of students stay on campus for the session, none of my friends did.  But I LOVED the independence and "me"-time.  I actually went to the gym EVERY day, studied a lot, and kept my apartment clean.  NONE of that happens during regular semesters.

For a month, I was really happy with my school's unique schedule.  That is over now.

I want to be done!  These last weeks are dragging by like molasses (sorry for talking like an 80-year-0ld).  Summer is like a mirage...it looks close but when I think I'm there it's gone!  Like that Rugrats episode where they're stranded in the "dessert" (a playground basketball court)

Another reason why I love Gala!

I have been extremely behind on my spending hours and hours exploring Gala Darling’s blog, iCiNG.  So it’s a good thing the online database at work is down again.  Thank goodness I caught up!  This article is the kind of thing I want to print out and post on my refridgerator door!  People that know me well know how OCD I am with organization.  It’s hard to see if you don’t know me and end up in my apartment…I am a little too fond of making piles on the floor.  The funny thing is, my mom once pointed out to me that my piles were even organized!  I made separate ones for clothes to go in the hamper, the closet, and the dresser.  I didn’t even realize it.

After 19 years, I think I have finally figured out why everything in my life is either in immaculate order or in the middle of the floor.  Thank you, college. I haven’t actually realized this thought process ever going through my head, but it was bothering me how this habit that I can’t seem to resolve is inequivalent to everything else in my life.  So I started trying to analyze myself.

I know, I know, that last sentence sounds like a prelude to a disaster or emotional crisis, but now I’m not as embarrased about my sloppiness.  It all comes down to this: I would rather have organized chaos than imperfect order. If I don’t have time or feel like hanging a shirt up with the rest of the shirts that are that color and sleeve-length on a hanger the same as those around it, I will make an organized pile.

Anyways…why I love Gala Darling!

I can honestly spend HOURS on her blog.  Before I studied Fashion Merchandising, I thought I loved fashion; I wanted to learn about it and write about it.  I was wrong.  I realized that what I’m interested in is style…specifically, personal style.  The only articles in fashion magazines that I read are the lifestyle ones…advice and such.  But I do like fashion.  What I don’t like is only reading and seeing things that are in fashion at the time.  I don’t really follow trends in fashion that much.  That’s why Vogue doesn’t do it for me.

iCiNG does.  Gala is so unique!  Clicking through the links on her blog, reading the subjects of each post, you see that she’s all over the spectrum.  She write about fashion, she writes about life (and hers seems pretty fantastic), and she writes about entertainment.  Almost any young woman will find quite a few articles that look like they were written for her.

So, please, go over to her blog.  I’ll most likely be mentioning her a lot in the future!

And another one comes into the mix...

Once again, I have opened up a new blogging account.  I don’t know what it is about me…but I always need to “start fresh,” even though it doesn’t really have an effect.  When I was younger, I started a new journal every few months.  I would want to write in it regularly, and if I broke the pattern, instead of fixing it, I would just start over.  Maybe the new set of blank pages would start up a new life, where I did journal every day.  But I doubt I thought about it that much back then.

When I got my first screen name, that would change every few months too, along with email addresses.  Whenever I came up with a better idea, or got bored of the old one, or was getting too much spam.  Most of the time, I got bored of something and came up with something else just to get rid of the old one.  Then, I would immediately hate this new one because I came up with it under pressure to get rid of the old identity.  For a twelve year old, it seemed like the most important factor affecting my social life.

I always have the urge to reinvent myself.  Start over.  Completely.  I don’t know why no matter how good things seem to be, I can’t be happy and satisfied with who I am.

This is something I think about way too often.  I also procrastinate and waste time too often.  By Friday, I need to finish 7 more pages of a scrapbook, do 3 loads of laundry, go grocery shopping, and most importantly study for my exam monday.  I shouldn’t be doing this right now.  I’ll have plenty of time to write tomorrow at work while I’m waiting for the documents to load!